I know that this blog is a "travel blog".But please allow me to share my thoughts once in awhile :-). After all this blog is also about life and love.
Im so "comfortable" being alone, being single for quite awhile, enjoying the freedom to do what I want to do...that I know should there come a time that I will choose someONE...it will be out of love not out of loneliness.
Sure one of my "wish" was to fall in love again , I also wish the same wish that most women wish to have in life. Sure I have been praying and hoping that along the path that I am taking, along with my travels, as I continue to live my life one day at a time...I will meet someone and eventually fall inlove. But I am not forcing myself to fall in love just because I think it's my turn or that I have been waiting for it to happen for quite a long time. They say that the best thing in life is worth waiting for and I think that If ever I will fall inlove again..it will be one of the best thing in my life. So I will wait. How long you might ask? Until the one meant for me is ready. Until the one who I deserve and who deserve me is ready.
I knew in my heart the answer to why I am still single. And it has nothing to do with me being a man hater, or being choosy, or being afraid to get hurt or whatever they say about a single woman. I learned that whatever people say about you, you just have to go back to your core and find your peace and not be affected by everyone else opinion on how you live your life. And that is what I have been trying to do, I knew in my heart, I am more open to love more than ever, I am more open to the possibility of falling inlove again and all that comes along with it. Love will always be part of me. I just refuse to settle to anything less than what I know I truly deserve.
Emotional stability is one goal I had hoped to achieve for myself. I have written that in my journal ten years ago. Emotional stability on my own. Though the lessons that I learned, to life experiences that made realize alot of realization that I needed to be the person I wanted to be.And I believe that at this age I achieve that. :-)
Yes, overall being single doesn't bother me. It was just when or how other people view me as a single woman that sometimes irritates me. People have a habit of minding my love life, I'm Ok with it so they should be ok with it too, right? but no. Instead they are the one having all these worries for me and that sucks, to tell you the truth. I am overall happy for who I am and who I have become and where I am right at the moment of my life, relationship status wise. I am, because I let go of things that make me a worst person and nurture that what makes me better. I am OK being single, that is the life I have been living for the past years of my life, that the idea that it will change the moment I have a boyfriend makes me uncomfortable at times. It's not the kind of change I really look forward. I have been single for quite awhile that I enjoy the freedom of doing what I want on a whim, on my own, my own term and my heart's desire. Yes I am used to being single and I am perfectly fine with it. But I DO miss the feeling of being Inlove. I miss the feeling of having someone special and being special to that someone too. I miss every aspect of love, despite my qualms, my familiarity about being single,I am and will always be a woman who always believe in the beauty and the magic of what love can bring.
But then again. I too, believe in perfect time. I believe in love and I also believe that there is season for love to come into my life once again. To others it might appears that it is awful long time already...but I am not in hurry, really. Because I believe that a great relationship is worth waiting for.
"Carpe Diem"
